We all get hurt and we all get tired of dealing with the people who hurt us. And I'm guessing most of us have conversations with God like Tevye in "Fiddler on the Roof." God may not answer us as obviously as a human would, but if we collapse time through journaling and reflection, we may more clearly see the reality of the conversation.

In my experience communing with the Almighty, he's much more interested in the essence of the thought than he is the exact clothes that that thought wears - the words.

Here is an example of a conversation I had with the Almighty years ago just before I started AIM. I was at a low ebb and ready to give up.

"Lord, I am so tired of trying to make a difference. I'm tired of this life of ministry.  I'd really rather do something else that doesn't cost so much.  What do you want from me?  I'm tired."

"My son, don't grow weary in doing good."

"But people have hurt me.  They've taken this gift that I've wanted to give and they've kicked it around like an old soccer ball.  I'm tired."

"You sound like one of my original missionaries who had himself a pity party after I wouldn't follow his time frame and plan.

"Who is that?"

"Jonah."*

"Yeah, well this mission work is tough.  Can I try out some other line of work like being a stockbroker or a travel agent?"

"Sure you can; I'm into freedom.  Isn't that what missions work is all about?  Not making people believe, but setting them free so they can believe...just like I've set you free now."

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Talking to yourself can result in a pity party where you're the only one in attendance. It's no way to go through life. If you're tired of that stale conversation with the theme of you bemoaning circumstances you expected to be different, try talking to the Almighty. I suggest getting out your journal, writing down a question, and then writing his response. I'll share another example of what this looks like tomorrow.

*"This change of plans greatly upset Jonah, and he became very angry. So he complained to the Lord about it: "Didn't I say before I left home that you would do this, Lord?" Jonah 4:1-2